running through life...!

running through life...!

Thursday, August 9, 2012


                           This piece was long overdue, but such is life friends… It might not be wrong to say that I just got a glimpse of what my life is going to be for the next 3 years and believe me, I have a gut feeling its going to be a lot worse than that.
                            There are many questions in life which do not have a particular and accurate answer, which make you feel absolutely clean bowled, and you keep on wondering where did the ball come from and how the hell did it hit the wicket. Well, one of many such questions is the quintessential cliché , to which nobody until now has been able to answer appropriately-    How do you know you are in  LOVE ?
                            A lot of great people have not been able to come  to a conclusion as to what it really is, so I am not even going to try.  In fact, the last time someone asked me that question, my answer was-
‘You know its love when all the songs make sense !’
                              Maybe its when someone’s presence is as essential as the air you breathe in or the food that you eat. Maybe when your hypothalamus just forgets to send you the much needed hunger signals because it is so clearly preoccupied in thinking about something else. Maybe its when you feel that the compliments of a thousand people are worthless until you get that one nod of appreciation from somebody.  But you know what, I think it is all these things and much more.
                                I am not a great believer in love at first sight. I know many people would beg to differ but according to me, the whole point of loving someone is to love yourself in the context of that person. You start looking at yourself differently. You suddenly come across that side of your personality which was hidden somewhere.  A side which is willing to take risks, willing to lose anything and everything for someone’s sake. For a sane person, it might seem absurd but its perfectly logical for a peson in love to confess to someone that ‘I cannot function without you. My life comes to a standstill without you.’ It takes immense courage to be able to say to a person that you are their only ray of hope for surviving in this ruthless game called life. And believe me people, you can never say that to a person whom you don’t trust or whom you don’t know.
                                    Howmuchever I think about it, I have never been able to understand how people love logically. Because as far as I know, where love is concerned, all practicality, rationality and logic goes out of the window. It is just pure impulse. No logic, no calculations. Love is definitely not their cup of tea for people who are caught up in their own egos, self respect and dignity. You just have to waive aside all these things for the time being to be able to really experience the purity of that emotion.
                                   I don’t know why people booze and do drugs. Fall in love instead….! Not necessarily with a person. Books, music, cricket, dancing, painting….Love something or someone….make it your passion, be obsessed about it. Believe me, it gives you such a high, which is incomparable to any drug on this earth. The timing is never right, you have to make it perfect.
                                 Hope you all find something or someone to love…
Best of luck…!!!                                 
                                          Hope to write soon again,
                                             Good bye, take care,

Thursday, February 9, 2012

                                          That Thing called  LIFE...

                                  I was  looking forward to my first air journey since quite a few days. Everything was planned weeks prior, but my nervousness refused to die down. Not that I have a fear of heights or something; I guess it was just a fear of the untreaded path. I can very well adapt to unfamiliar conditions but 'been there, done that' kind of situations are always favourable. Plus the fact that I was travelling alone made things much more miserable. I didnt even have anybody to see me off at the airport. I missed my Dad so much that day. I am so used to him being around all the time whenever I am leaving town, I just cannot picture myself departing without him. Thankfully I was expecting quite a welcome party at my arrival so that was a comforting thought.
                                      So with a mixture of nervousness, excitement and a funny feeling in the stomach, I entered the airport. The rest of the boarding procedure was quite simple actually. My only concern was not to get myself into any nasty mess. As you all might be aware by now, I have quite a reputation as a trouble magnet, especially when I am travelling alone and I was in no mood to create more hurdles for myself. It was quite an achievement when I successfully sat in the right plane, on the right seat and at the right time and most importantly...without making a fool of myself or creating a big drama. This might seem like a child's play but believe me, I have immense capacity of transforming seemingly effortless tasks into an entangled mess for myself.
                                   Anyways, the real fun started when the flight was about to take off. There was a funny sensation in my stomach as well as my ears which was probably because of the rising altitude but all rationality goes out of the window when you are shit scared and that too alone. In that spur of a moment I had the craziest, stupidest and the most childish thought of my life. What if this plane crashes and I die today ? I know it was dumb and limitlessly insane of me to think something like that but my imagination is pretty wild and it just aggravated my anxiety even more.
                                  Seriously people, have you ever thought what if God forbid, something like this happens...? The moment that thought appeared in my mind I realised, we take our own lives so much for granted. I mean, we never really appreciate the importance of something/somebody until they are no longer a part of our lives. We never really understand the value of life until we get a scare that we could lose it any moment. That crazy moment made me realise out of the blue that there is so much I want to do before I die. Apart from achieving the stereotypical professional and the whole 'get married and settle down' kind of goals, I am sure everybody has their own 'To Do' list. Things just started popping up in my mind -- Oh God..! I havent  finished the last season of Friends, I havent   met my school friend since 6 years I promised her we'll definitely meet this time when I come home, I would love to go on a bike ride at 2 am in the night, I would love to walk barefoot on a beach while its raining...!!  I want to step outside for the whole day without knowing where to go....sit in a random bus and spontaneously get down on whichever stop amuses me... I havent even said 'I love you' to my mom... Can you beat that...?? So many questions unanswered and so many answers to which nobady has ever asked me any questions....
                                       We always end up thinking what if... I had done that instead of this... life would've been so much different, what if I had taken this decision or said this to someone or what if I hadnt said this to somebody ? Maybe Life would've been better. We lose ourselves into all the possible 'ifs', 'buts', and 'maybe'  but what we forget is life is supposed to be unpredictable, unexpected and constantly changing. That is the very definition of life. But the most important thing that defines our life is what we really want.
                                      I was jolted back to my senses by the pilot announcing that we were preparing to land shortly. That was literally music to my ears. I just wanted to get out of that aircraft as soon as possible. You have no idea how happy I was to see those  familiar faces amidst the sea of unknown strangers, when I finally arrived outside the airport. It again made me realise that I wouldnt have been able to see all these people if that crazy imagination of mine had come true.
                                     Anyways, the  point is, I had just realised how precious life is...and what a waste of time it is to regret about the past and worry about the future when we have the present in front of us- right here, right now. Get inspired by someone/something or do something worth inspiring others. Leave something in someone's life for which that person will remember you throughout his/her a good way ofcourse..!!
Thank God for this gift everyday and use this incomparable opportunity to make yours as well as other's lives a bit more bearable and everything that you always wanted will follow, you dont need to ask for anything. But its equally important not to show self neglect to the point of self denial in this process. Because you are just as important as everyone else in your life is and also because its a hell of a task to discover yourself again in that mess.  Do something on which your grandchildren will laugh someday and say... 'I have a really cool Grandma/Grandpa'.  Life is too short and moreover, its never the same it was yesterday. We might not be in the right frame of mind tommorow to do something what we always wanted to do, so you might as well do it when you are.
                               My 'To Do' list will always be a never ending one coz I keep adding new things to do even before I have a chance to cross off something as done. The fact that my list was censored (for obvious reasons) is gonna make it a bit more difficult to accomplish...if you know what I mean...!!! But believe me, I am not going to leave any stone unturned... will try whatever it takes to accomplish it....
                               So, go ahead and make that list right now and work on it... while the sun is still shining. I am off to completing mine...
See you next time...Hopefully soon....and with some crazy stuff to share...
Have a Happening LIFE...!!!

                                                                                               Good luck with ur list..!!
                                                                                               Good Bye......:)
                                                                                               Take care....